Just Another Face In the Crowd.

You know, everyone complains at how much Taylorville sucks and how bad they want to get out. But honestly, it’s because they haven’t got out that they still think like that. I’ve gotten out, wayyy out, but when I come back, I appreciate how much I absolutely love the place.

I loved my life in Taylorville. I was a “somebody.” In high school I had everything I could ever want—a perfect boyfriend, perfect friends, varsity sports, popularity, blonde cute hair, cute clothes, good grades, a nice car, a rockin bod—the things every high school girl wants. I was happy. I wouldn’t change anything about it. I was friends with everyone and I could get any guy that I ever wanted, but I just chose to have one, the perfect one.

Then senior year came and it was time to start thinking about growing up. After much anguish and tears I decided to go to BYU. It was one of the best decisions of my life and I am soooooo glad that I did because, let’s be honest, I would be dead if I went to a real college with my friends.

However, sometimes I really miss home. When I’m at school, it’s like a huge competition, about EVERYTHING. And sometimes, well most of the time, it’s really annoying. I was smart in high school, or so I thought. EVERYONE at BYU was the smartest in his or her high school and it’s a huge competition to see who gets the best grades. Friends are kind of hard to make because girls are the competition and no one wants to make girl friends, they’re just worried about making guy friends. The friends I do have aren’t really good friends and don’t know how to include me in plans even though I invite them to EVERYTHING, but that’s a whole other subject. Everyone dresses up for class because it’s a competition to see who looks the cutest and who can get the guy. Its like freaken animals at a water hole when it comes to finding a guy to date. Like, what? I never ever have had this problem. I used to be able to basically snap my fingers and any guy would want to date me. Not the case at BYU. I am basically invisible.

When I come home, I feel important. I feel like somebody. Guys text me. My friends love me. They WANT to hang out with me. It’s hard to make time for everyone because everyone wants to hang. Guys wanna hangout with ME, not my hot roommates or friends. We have fun and go to parties and go boggin’. We laugh about stupid shiz and do stupid shiz and live our lives like 20 year olds should. Not just sitting back passively and watching movies. No. I’m not about that life.

I love Taylorville with all my heart and everyone in it. Sometimes I wish I would have stayed. Maybe I would have been happier. But I know that leaving was for the best. It just sucks a little sometimes. I am glad that I got to come home this week and reminiscence on good times and make new good times. I absolutely LOVE my Taylorville friends and they will be irreplaceable in my heart. <3

I hope that in the future I can have my life that I had in Taylorville in Utah and be a somebody and not just another face in the crowd, but for now, ill just push my way through the crowd and head for center stage….

It happens.

So i read this blog and thought it was absolutely hilarious! We know it happens to the best of us. We all have those embarrassing moments that we never want ANYONE to find out about. One of those embarrassing moments is when your stomach is grumbling, and not because you're hungry. Its because you have to fart. or poop. and it is truly the worst thing in the world.

The Fart That (Almost) Altered My Destiny hahasforhoohas.comAnna shares an outrageous story about a fart that (almost) altered her destiny on a date with the man of her dreams.

So I'm going to share my most embarrassing moment.

It was about a month ago on campus and i was feeling especially sick that day. I don't know what I had eaten or what had gotten into me but it was not good.

Well, i was in a geology review that covered 6 chapters. Well by chapter 3, i was feeling it. I had to go to the bathroom, like NOW. I decided to hold it because i really needed to study for this test so i stuck it out. By chapter 4 i started sweating. By chapter 5 i had to get out of there because it was seeping out. I was in the Eyring Center on campus and i am not familiar with that building at all. I was frantically looking for a bathroom but i couldn't find one anywhere in sight. So i ran out the building to the SWKT and thats when it happened. As i ran down each step of the Eyring building stairs, poop started coming out. I couldn't hold it in! It had a mind of its own and wasn't going back in!

I got in the SKWT bathroom and just exploded. It was like Daddy Day Care, you know, when Eddie Murphy looks into the stall and has a disgusted look on his face and looks all over, even at the ceiling. Literally, that was what happened to me. It was EVERYWHERE!

What was i to do? I couldn't walk home in poopy pants. I had to wash them out in the sink... So yes. I threw my underwear away and washed my jeans out in the sink of the SWKT bathroom. Luckily. it was 8 o clock at night and no one came in.

Once i walked the walk of shame home, everything was better. But still. I had to live with being probably the only person to ever poop their pants on BYU campus.

Its all laughs and giggles now but at the time, i was horrified.

So when life gets you down, just remember. There could be worse things. Everyone has embarrassing moments.

It happens.

<3 Cassie

Change of Plans

Lately I've been having a really rough time at school. I just can't bring myself to do well! I thought i was smart in high school, but in college, i guess not.

I had a couple breakdowns and called my dad and talked to him about everything in life. I know that i am supposed to be at BYU, so why aren't things working out as planned?

Im not saying i want to get married yet...AT ALL. But, it would be nice to have someone tell me I'm pretty every once in a while. Not, "I like your earrings" or "I like your eye SHADOW." What is this business anyway guys, like seriously. You can't really honestly like my eye shadow or earrings.

Well my dad said that maybe no one has been put in my life yet is because i should go on a mission. Ive thought about a mission before but never too seriously. I started thinking about it a lot and very seriously after my chat with my dad since i would only have a year before i left to go. WELL..

President Monson surprised me! Girls can on missions now when they are 19. Boys 18. Crazy huh! Well it was such a sign for me and i think it is what is right. Of course i have a lot of cleaning up to do before i can go so it may still be a year before i can actually leave but I for sure want to go on a mission.

Most girls don't get the experience and I want to serve the Lord and others. By serving i know that i can be happy. TRULY HAPPY.

So, time to stop being so bitter about modesty and movies and other menial rules. I know that this is what is right and i can do it.

I am a Mormon. I know it, I live it, i LOVE it.

XOXO

-Cassie

We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together.

Today marks 1 exact year since Kyle and I broke up. And I'm doing great. I don't even think about him that much anymore unless someone brings him up.

If any of you have ever been in love, you know how amazingly awesome it is to have someone there for you 24-7, to love you. Tell you you're pretty. Tell you goodnight. Tell you he wouldn't rather be anywhere else but with you. Play with your hair at night. Cuddle with you and hold you in his arms until you fall asleep. Look up and point at you in the stands when he scores a touchdown. Laugh with you when you're being silly. Cry with you when you're upset. Love is love and it can be the best thing ever.

But, if you've experienced love, you've also experienced break ups as well.

The feeling that you can't breath and your heart is ripped into 250 different shreds. The fact that your whole future is gone and who you thought was forever is now so yesterday. To sum it up, it sucks.

I was really upset for a long long long time afterwords. Like T-Swifts song says, we went through an emotional roller coaster after we broke up. He called me, he loves me, he tells me "we need space", he calls me "lets talk", he calls me "i don't wanna talk to you ever again."

It basically sucked and he played mind games with me for way too long. And i know I'm no angel either, but we both were young and immature. Who really knows what love is at this age anyway? ESPECIALLY in high school.

After him being a completely different person and dating the girl he cheated on me with, ignoring me and never wanting to talk, being a jerk to even my friends, I called it quits. NO. We are NEVER getting back together bud. Like....EVER.

Yeah you were a great guy, but not now.

Sometimes you miss the memories, and not the person. I know that I will find my Prince Charming one day. ONE day. Not anytime soon, thats for sure. But life goes on. I'm just focusing on NOT being a raging whore and finding guy FRIENDS. Nice guys who aren't just gonna use me. In Provo, shouldn't be TOO entirely hard.

I'm excited to explore the realm of dating again and know that one of these days I will find a guy thats not weird, bald, or a tool.

Cuz i aint settling!

<3 Cassie

Another Year in the Valley

Well I'm back in Provo.

It's been good so far. Worked worked worked until school started.

Too much Jamba Juice to handle. I now officially hate Education Week.

My best friend Addie got married and they are the most perfect couple ever. I love them. <3

School is going pretty good so far. I mean, its school, how much better can it get. I think I am officially going to do PR. If i could do my dream job, I would work for a fashion magazine and then eventually open up my own boutique. But we will see....

I just wish I could just marry a doctor and call it quits. But. That'll never happen.

Other than that. Life is.... Okay.

I love my ward and all but I feel like its so much competition here. Like a bunch of animals at a water hole. Battle of the fittest.

Oh well, I don't wanna get married anytime soon anyway.

Well thats all for now kids. Have a great rest of the Sunday and a great week.

<3 Cassie

We Found Love in A Hopeless Place

This week had a rough start but it turned out to be great.

On Monday it was one of those days where everything went wrong...late for class, went to get a passport and couldn't get it because I didn't have a birth certificate, FHE brothers pissed me off:( BUT.. then a cute boy asked me on a date for Friday so it was all good:)

Valentine's day was interesting....I put my name and number on a cup and told my co workers to give it to a good looking guy. Well, they did!!! I got a text later and he said thanks for making his day. We texted a little and his name was Chris. He asked what blind Valentines do on Valentines day and I invited him over! and he came!!! It was way funny and he was way cute with nice teeth and eyes:) Ohhh Valentines Day, I did end up getting a Valentine<3

I had two tests this week, I got C's on both but thats okay. Better than last semester.

I still have two more tests and then I'm done with midterms! Wooohooo!

My date with Stephen was soo fun on Friday! We went to the McQuarries house and i will just say...Ohhh my goshhh! SOOO nice!! And today I found out that he inherited his dad's business and invests a lot. yeah, I need to do what he does! haha. Well we found Narnia in his house. haha. Me Mckann Kyle Esplin and Stephen, They are HILARIOUS!!!!!

I successfully got my passport finally!!!:)

I went clubbing last night with Suzanne, Stacie, Brooklyn, Jayson, Jenna, Lindsey, and Paige. It was kind of lame at first but then it got wayyy fun! Me and Jayson danced and well...haha. Let's just say I owe ice-cream again:)

We watched a movie with these boys Brooklyn picked up at the club. One was REALLY weird but one was REALLY hot. haha. But yeah, last night was wayyy successful. Def. need to club more often!!!

Tonight we are having a desert night with some boys in our ward, perspective men;) Im excited and NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!! Hollaaa!!!

Back to the 50s

This week has been a good one.

At first I had a little break down about school. I wasn't sure if i wanted to stay at BYU or not, but then Mckann talked some sense into me:)

I got an A on my first paper-- A personal narrative. I was proud of myself. I thought it was way good. It was about dating and all that comes with it. I really enjoyed writing it as well. Maybe I should look into journalism....

Me and Suzanne asked boys on dates!!! I was going to ask this one boy in my ward but he was going out of town :/ So we just went over to New Heritage and knocked on doors! Haha. It was great. After about 4 doors we got some really cute boys to go with us! Aaron and Jeffery. Come to find out, they're roommates with Kevin and Craig, who used to be in our ward! What a small world.

So we went on a date with them on Friday. I should probably say the whole reason WHY we asked these boys to go. SO.. Alyssa and Abbey's kitchen faces right into the New Heritage building, perfect creeper view. There is this guitar boy that plays his guitar into the wee hours of the night with his shirt off. They waved at him one night then he started waving back and it goes on every night now and its just funny . So they decided to make a sign that says "Guitar boy, You + Friend = Date on Friday?" and put it in their window. He totally came over and said he would go but his friend couldn't. They wanted to play Wallyball, its like volleyball but ten times better, and needed equal teams so they asked us to come and find dates. It ended up being a great time, and i even got some battle scars. I forgot how much I missed volleyball.

The rest of the night was fun too. I made lots of new friends:) We sat in the elevator in the New Heritage Boys Apartment and waited for people to get in to talk to. We met Jordan and Dave the creepy Pizza guy. After that we hung out with Kyle  and Zack from our ward. They are like undercover babes. Really attractive just kind of out there... Then Hannah, Kate, Stephanie, Taylor Rane, Me and some random guys went to Spark. Its like a fake bar. It was so fun though. We ordered martinis, didn't think I would ever do that in my lifetime. But yeah, it was way cool.

The 50s dance was good. It was way hot, but it was WAY fun. I actually do like Stake Dances, just not the Wilk ones, they can get kinda gay. The theme was 50s and I totally went all out. it was so fun. I def looked like Sandy from Grease-- post Travolta :)

Church today was good. Alex West is by far the best Sunday School teacher ever:)

Its snowing. What a dagger. Not fun. Im SOOOO over winter!! Summer please come soon!!!!!!!!!