Lately I've been having a really rough time at school. I just can't bring myself to do well! I thought i was smart in high school, but in college, i guess not.
I had a couple breakdowns and called my dad and talked to him about everything in life. I know that i am supposed to be at BYU, so why aren't things working out as planned?
Im not saying i want to get married yet...AT ALL. But, it would be nice to have someone tell me I'm pretty every once in a while. Not, "I like your earrings" or "I like your eye SHADOW." What is this business anyway guys, like seriously. You can't really honestly like my eye shadow or earrings.
Well my dad said that maybe no one has been put in my life yet is because i should go on a mission. Ive thought about a mission before but never too seriously. I started thinking about it a lot and very seriously after my chat with my dad since i would only have a year before i left to go. WELL..
President Monson surprised me! Girls can on missions now when they are 19. Boys 18. Crazy huh! Well it was such a sign for me and i think it is what is right. Of course i have a lot of cleaning up to do before i can go so it may still be a year before i can actually leave but I for sure want to go on a mission.
Most girls don't get the experience and I want to serve the Lord and others. By serving i know that i can be happy. TRULY HAPPY.
So, time to stop being so bitter about modesty and movies and other menial rules. I know that this is what is right and i can do it.
I am a Mormon. I know it, I live it, i LOVE it.
XOXO
-Cassie
